I had a date with my adviser’s husband – the head of our program. Unlike the usual dates which you look forward to, this one is something I am dreading to happen. Basically, my output was scrutinized. On one hand, it was good presenting to him. At least I know what to expect come the defense proper. But it made me feel bad at the same time. Aside from the bombarding me with loads of criticisms, the premise of my work was questioned. He said something to the effect that if he had the chance to scrutinize my work before, it would not have passed the first round of defense – which made me question my work. Am I working 7 days a week 12 hours a day for a piece of crap? Why did they approve it in the first place if he had issues with it? He was there when I defended it. I mean they gave me a grade – a clear indication that I have completed the requirements in the prerequisite course. Wasn’t that a clear signal to begin the project?
It would have been easier if his questions were purely technical and strictly in terms of the whereabouts of the system. But to challenged system itself. O common! Should that have been settled already? It certainly affected my working momentum. Anyway, I don’t have a choice but to pursue what I have and to address the issues he pointed out. It’s too late to make major revisions. Right now, I’m officially refusing to be affected by it. Back to work. Got to get things done
